I don't know what to title this post...my brian is tired and I am emotionally exhausted. I do feel much better than I did this morning thanks to my small group at women's bible study. I have just been feeling lately that I'm not doing what God has planned for me, but today He showed me that I am.
I observed in a special ed class yesterday as a requirement for one of my classes. All I can say is that God made very special people to do that job. I was only there for 2 hours and I was done. I felt like crying. I thought to myself "what am I doing getting myself into this field?" Am I crazy? I have felt pretty crazy lately. But now I feel confident that yes...this is what I am meant to do.
I have realized that when things get tough or difficult, that's the enemy trying to put doubt in my mind. God is trying to grow me and make me stronger. All I can do is put all my faith and trust in Him, and know that I am following the path He has already laid out for me. I find comfort in knowing that God already has my future planned. It is a daily struggle letting go of all my worry and stress, and giving it to God to take care of. That's what He wants me to do....to really let go. It's scary.
I know I am never alone, God is always watching over me. As much as I love my children, He loves me a million times more.
What an Awesome God He is!
