Happy Birthday!

Well, my oldest boy turned seven yesterday. Wow! How the time just flies. I am very proud of the little boy he is and I'm confident that he will grow into a mighty young man. It seems crazy that seven years ago he first entered the world. When I get caught up in the day to day stuff , my life seems like how it has always been. It isn't until I have a quiet minute to sit down that I reflect on all the incredible experiences that I have gone through, giving birth to my first child being one of the big ones. Three kids later, I am definately a changed person from the new mother I once was. As they get older, children become more independent. It's not that my responsiblity as a mom changes, it's just that at times I feel that I'm not "as needed" as I once was. I think it is "that feeling" of having to take care of someone who is completely dependent on me, that makes me want another baby. Then I stop daydreaming and come back to the "real world" where kids are fighting and toys are all over the floor....am I crazy for wanting another one? who knows. I put that decision in the Lords hands. Yes, I am completely blessed with my three children and I know they are special gifts, and I am incredibly lucky to be their mother. As much as they make me crazy sometimes, they have made me into the person I am now and I thank God for that.

Just another monday morning

Well today has been a learning experience. It is much easier to just tell the kids what we are going to do rather than ask them what they think, because now I get three different opinions/arguments in return. Not all of them will be happy with my choices, but you know what...I am the mama, they will just have to get over it. And they eventually do end up having a little bit of fun.

So today we went to the goodwill to drop off stuff, we proceeded inside to have a look around and the kids came out with some goodies. We then went to sams club to get dogfood, there was some complaining, but we got through that too. We headed to the library but it wasn't open yet, so we went over to the animal shelter and played with the kitty cats. Avery did not want to leave. And we found an adorable beagle that we just had to just play with. Then we went back to the library, the kids got books, Luke and Avery signed up for the summer reading program. I had been promising (bribing) them donuts throughout our errand running, so now finally it is 1:30 and they are having donuts for lunch. Whatever works.

So that was our morning.

Now I am trying to plan fun things for them to do throughout the week, so we are not always sitting at home and stuck inside because it's so darn hot out. We did get out our little plastic pool, and that was fun for a day. So our weekday plans will consist of hitting up the movie theater at the mall in Temecula, they have $1 kids movies (tues, wed, thurs 9:30 am). I'd like to get to the library one day, and I have been wanting to check out Dejong Dairy in Wildomar. We will make sure to throw in a pool day or head down to the beach one day.

It all sounds good, let's see how well my plan gets executed.

*complaining kids aside, I know that I am incredibly lucky to have the opportunity to stay home with them...and I woulndn't change it for the world.

Happiness

Lately I have really been trying to figure out what it is that makes me truly happy. Well, maybe really it's been what it is that God really wants me to be doing. Because if i am following God's plan for my life, then I should be happy right? I tend to take too many things on, put too much on my plate, and then freak out because I am overwhelmed. I want a simple life, when I daydream I think of living out in the country and being able to look for miles and not see a single home or freeway or shopping mall. Just seeing the land. That is relaxing to me, closing my eyes and picturing God's creation. You know, I think that it is by divine intervention that those are the thoughts I have. My creator knew me before I was born. He has the ultimate plan for my life and right now, to have the simple life I desire, all I have to do is let God have control. All I have to do is talk with Him and listen to what he has planned for me. All I have to do is give Him my worry. A simple life is living the way God wants me to live and trusting Him that He will take care of all my needs.